I was sick over the weekend, so I took a few days off from exercising. Yesterday, I was feeling a lot better, so I got on my elliptical... and failed. I was exhausted after 5 minutes and couldn't handle any resistance. My lungs hurt, I started to gasp and gave up at 13 minutes.
I'm weak. I was doing so well last week and then I totally sucked yesterday. I guess I am just not better yet because I find it highly unlikely that I am out of shape within a week. It sucks feeling weak. I was feeling so strong. But, my lungs got the better of me and I rushed for my inhaler.
But, I am happy to report that despite my sickness, I was still able to drop two pounds. I've now lost 22 pounds total. Yay! Must keep going.
Wednesday, June 27, 2012
Friday, June 22, 2012
Failure
This week I feel like a failure. Not a failure with my diet, but with my exercise.
We have been sleep training and it has been just... emotionally frustrating. It is still a fight at bedtime. There is crying there is tantrums, there is putting her back in her room a lot, and there is peeing the pants and it is extremely draining.
Some nights it is short, it is done by 9pm. But other times... it is 10pm or 11pm. And by the end of it, I do not have the strength to exercise because I am mentally and emotionally drained by all the crying.
Fighting Nicole every night is just so draining that I lose the will to do anything afterward, I just want to hit my pillow and fall asleep.
So, I have only worked out twice this week and it shows. I've lost zero weight this week.
I hope that bedtime goes better this weekend so that I can have time to myself to work out at night.
Or, maybe I should be waking up at 5am to workout before I go to work. I don't know, but things just aren't happening right now. It is really hard waking up early when I don't fall asleep until 11pm at night because Nicole is up so late.
I just need a push, I need some motivation. Anyone have some motivation that I can borrow?
We have been sleep training and it has been just... emotionally frustrating. It is still a fight at bedtime. There is crying there is tantrums, there is putting her back in her room a lot, and there is peeing the pants and it is extremely draining.
Some nights it is short, it is done by 9pm. But other times... it is 10pm or 11pm. And by the end of it, I do not have the strength to exercise because I am mentally and emotionally drained by all the crying.
Fighting Nicole every night is just so draining that I lose the will to do anything afterward, I just want to hit my pillow and fall asleep.
So, I have only worked out twice this week and it shows. I've lost zero weight this week.
I hope that bedtime goes better this weekend so that I can have time to myself to work out at night.
Or, maybe I should be waking up at 5am to workout before I go to work. I don't know, but things just aren't happening right now. It is really hard waking up early when I don't fall asleep until 11pm at night because Nicole is up so late.
I just need a push, I need some motivation. Anyone have some motivation that I can borrow?
Monday, June 18, 2012
20 Down, 20 to Go
I stood on the scale this morning and was happy to see... 210lbs. Yay!
Okay, most people don't "yay" when they see a 200+ number on the scale, but this means that I have officially lost 20lbs!
Granted, it took me 10 weeks to lose that much, but still, yay! With 20lbs off, I am down one size in my pants. I've gone from an 18 pant size to a 16. I only own three pairs of size 16 that I bought when I first got pregnant with Nicole and was in denial about maternity pants, but that is okay, I will wear those three pairs until I get down to size 14, in which I have a lot of pants.
I haven't taken my measurements in a couple weeks, but I know that they have changed a little because my clothes feel different. My waist, my hips, my butt, and my chest all feel smaller. Unfortunately, I haven't noticed a difference in my arms and legs yet. But, this just means that I have to work harder to see that difference.
Last time I was this weight, Nicole was 9 months old. I lost ten more pounds before I became pregnant with Dan. My goal is to lose at least 20 more pounds before trying to get pregnant again. Hopefully, it doesn't take me another 10 weeks. But, if it does, then that is okay as long as I am going in the right direction.
Okay, most people don't "yay" when they see a 200+ number on the scale, but this means that I have officially lost 20lbs!
Granted, it took me 10 weeks to lose that much, but still, yay! With 20lbs off, I am down one size in my pants. I've gone from an 18 pant size to a 16. I only own three pairs of size 16 that I bought when I first got pregnant with Nicole and was in denial about maternity pants, but that is okay, I will wear those three pairs until I get down to size 14, in which I have a lot of pants.
I haven't taken my measurements in a couple weeks, but I know that they have changed a little because my clothes feel different. My waist, my hips, my butt, and my chest all feel smaller. Unfortunately, I haven't noticed a difference in my arms and legs yet. But, this just means that I have to work harder to see that difference.
Last time I was this weight, Nicole was 9 months old. I lost ten more pounds before I became pregnant with Dan. My goal is to lose at least 20 more pounds before trying to get pregnant again. Hopefully, it doesn't take me another 10 weeks. But, if it does, then that is okay as long as I am going in the right direction.
Tuesday, June 12, 2012
Sick or Not?
Last night I was doing fine. I got my new immersion blender in the mail and I tested it out to see if I could make fruit smoothies at work and sure enough it works great! Then, I hopped on my elliptical and did 25 minutes (at a level 3) and 10 minutes of stretching. And when I was done stretching, it hit me. I was suddenly very nauseated.
At first, I thought that maybe I had gone too hard on the elliptical and gotten nauseated from dehydration. I know level three doesn't sound hard, but when you are as out of shape as I am, it is a hard workout. But, then the lower digestion hit me and I felt like me intestines were boiling. Then, I got the shakes and the aches. I did not feel good at all.
Plus, Nicole was up and complaining that her tummy hurt and I thought, oh no. Nicole and I were up late... which means that Matt was too. I took some tylenol and some anti-nausea and just hoped that I wouldn't throw up because that is just the worst. I hate throwing up with a passion. But, I couldn't sleep and I was up until... I don't know... 3am? 4am? I kept drifting off and then waking when my abdomen boiled. I don't know if I got much sleep at all. (Luckily, Nicole fell asleep around midnight.)
I woke up this morning at 7am and... fine. No stomach cramping, no nausea, just an awful taste in my mouth from the Gatorade I was drinking all night and some fatigue.
So, was I sick? Was I not? I have no idea. But, I certainly didn't like whatever was going on. Maybe I just ate something that didn't agree with me? I'm feeling betterish today, so hopefully it stays that way. I'm at work... but man am I tired.
At first, I thought that maybe I had gone too hard on the elliptical and gotten nauseated from dehydration. I know level three doesn't sound hard, but when you are as out of shape as I am, it is a hard workout. But, then the lower digestion hit me and I felt like me intestines were boiling. Then, I got the shakes and the aches. I did not feel good at all.
Plus, Nicole was up and complaining that her tummy hurt and I thought, oh no. Nicole and I were up late... which means that Matt was too. I took some tylenol and some anti-nausea and just hoped that I wouldn't throw up because that is just the worst. I hate throwing up with a passion. But, I couldn't sleep and I was up until... I don't know... 3am? 4am? I kept drifting off and then waking when my abdomen boiled. I don't know if I got much sleep at all. (Luckily, Nicole fell asleep around midnight.)
I woke up this morning at 7am and... fine. No stomach cramping, no nausea, just an awful taste in my mouth from the Gatorade I was drinking all night and some fatigue.
So, was I sick? Was I not? I have no idea. But, I certainly didn't like whatever was going on. Maybe I just ate something that didn't agree with me? I'm feeling betterish today, so hopefully it stays that way. I'm at work... but man am I tired.
Friday, June 8, 2012
Carbs, How I Love You
What I am missing one right now... my carbs!
I haven't cut carbs, that would be insanity, but I have limited them... severely. I used to eat carbs for every meal. Here is how my meals used to go.
Breakfast: 2 slices of Raisin Bread (100 calories each) or, on Friday I would have a donut (300 calories)
Lunch: Leftovers from dinner the night before like pasta, fried rice, or delicious enchiladas (around 600 calories)
Dinner: More carbs! Pasta, rice dish, mexican dish, burgers, or pizza (my fav). (1000 calories)
Snacks: Cookies (100 calories each and I would have 5), ice cream (200 calories for half a cup), or a nighttime peanut butter and jelly (250 calories), ect...
Doesn't that sound yummy? Cuz it sure is!
This is what my meals are like now.
Breakfast: Yogurt (100 calories), a banana (100 calories), or a grapefruit cup (50 calories).
Lunch: Chicken or turkey salad that is either garden, mexican, or asian (350 calories).
Dinner: Vegetable pasta, vegetable rice, vegetable pizza, or something else veggie heavy. (750 calories)
Snacks: Carrots (35 calories), string cheese (100 calories), granola bar (100 calories), or half a cup of frozen yogurt (110 calories).
Do you see the change? There are a lot more veggies, a lot more fruit, more dairy, and a lot less sugars and bread and deliciousness. This is not a bad thing. I enjoy what I eat, but I miss some of my other foods. I allow myself homemade pizza once a week because it is my favorite food and it is a luxury, but when we make it at home, I can determine how much oil, how much cheese and how much meat I put on it.
Since ground turkey was on sale at Sunflower last week, we bought a bunch and I am substituting turkey for beef wherever I can. Turkey is almost half the calories of beef, so it is totally worth it to substitute. And, after eating chicken and fish for the last 8 weeks, it is good to have a little more variety to my food.
But, I really really miss my massive amounts of pasta, cookies, cake, donuts, bread, and carby deliciousness. Mmmm.... They say you are suppose to stop craving things, but I haven't stopped craving my carbs and sugars.
But, when I have splurged and eaten fattening things that are high in butter or oil, I find myself feeling sick to my stomach, so my body must be changing a little. They say it takes a few months to reset your brain to desire healthy foods rather than unhealthy foods. I'm ready for the reset. But, they also say you can reset your brain to desire unhealthy foods in one week. Apparently, it is a lot harder to go healthy than it is to go unhealthy.
I haven't cut carbs, that would be insanity, but I have limited them... severely. I used to eat carbs for every meal. Here is how my meals used to go.
Breakfast: 2 slices of Raisin Bread (100 calories each) or, on Friday I would have a donut (300 calories)
Lunch: Leftovers from dinner the night before like pasta, fried rice, or delicious enchiladas (around 600 calories)
Dinner: More carbs! Pasta, rice dish, mexican dish, burgers, or pizza (my fav). (1000 calories)
Snacks: Cookies (100 calories each and I would have 5), ice cream (200 calories for half a cup), or a nighttime peanut butter and jelly (250 calories), ect...
Doesn't that sound yummy? Cuz it sure is!
This is what my meals are like now.
Breakfast: Yogurt (100 calories), a banana (100 calories), or a grapefruit cup (50 calories).
Lunch: Chicken or turkey salad that is either garden, mexican, or asian (350 calories).
Dinner: Vegetable pasta, vegetable rice, vegetable pizza, or something else veggie heavy. (750 calories)
Snacks: Carrots (35 calories), string cheese (100 calories), granola bar (100 calories), or half a cup of frozen yogurt (110 calories).
Do you see the change? There are a lot more veggies, a lot more fruit, more dairy, and a lot less sugars and bread and deliciousness. This is not a bad thing. I enjoy what I eat, but I miss some of my other foods. I allow myself homemade pizza once a week because it is my favorite food and it is a luxury, but when we make it at home, I can determine how much oil, how much cheese and how much meat I put on it.
Since ground turkey was on sale at Sunflower last week, we bought a bunch and I am substituting turkey for beef wherever I can. Turkey is almost half the calories of beef, so it is totally worth it to substitute. And, after eating chicken and fish for the last 8 weeks, it is good to have a little more variety to my food.
But, I really really miss my massive amounts of pasta, cookies, cake, donuts, bread, and carby deliciousness. Mmmm.... They say you are suppose to stop craving things, but I haven't stopped craving my carbs and sugars.
But, when I have splurged and eaten fattening things that are high in butter or oil, I find myself feeling sick to my stomach, so my body must be changing a little. They say it takes a few months to reset your brain to desire healthy foods rather than unhealthy foods. I'm ready for the reset. But, they also say you can reset your brain to desire unhealthy foods in one week. Apparently, it is a lot harder to go healthy than it is to go unhealthy.
Thursday, June 7, 2012
Insanity is Insane
So, I have been moving forward with the Insanity workouts even though they are very difficult and some of the moves I am not yet able to do.
I am really liking it. It is hard, like really really hard and I am drenched in sweat at the end of every work out, but I also feel good after every work out. I feel energized and I sleep better, and it is definitely challenging me and I like a challenge.
A lot of the moves in Insanity require a lot of flexibility and upper body strength. I'm fairly flexible except when it comes to my middle. Sometimes, my too large tummy gets in the way of me being able to do the exercise or the stretch. But, hopefully, the tummy will go down and I will be able to do more.
The other thing that I have trouble with is the push-ups. I can't do one push-up... let alone three sets of 10. I think that as I build up my arm muscles and as I drop my weight, I will someday be able to do a real push-up. My 213lbs is just too much to be hefting up and down.
So far, I have stuck to the 30-40 minute work outs for Insanity. At first, I couldn't even finish the 40 minute work out, but now I am able to finish them, but I know that I would not be able to do the "Max" one hour work outs. I've stuck with the circuit workouts that have frequent rests and I am afraid of the "Pure Cardio" that is non-stop 35 minutes cardio.
Matt has started to do some of the Insanity work outs with me on the nights when he doesn't have homework to do and it really pushes me to try harder in my work outs because I have someone there beside me doing the same thing. Sometimes I make up competitions in my head to continue as long as Matt does with an exercise.
So, I will continue on with Insanity because I like it and there are so many different workouts that I don't get bored. But, we shall see if the workouts pay off on the scale.
I am really liking it. It is hard, like really really hard and I am drenched in sweat at the end of every work out, but I also feel good after every work out. I feel energized and I sleep better, and it is definitely challenging me and I like a challenge.
A lot of the moves in Insanity require a lot of flexibility and upper body strength. I'm fairly flexible except when it comes to my middle. Sometimes, my too large tummy gets in the way of me being able to do the exercise or the stretch. But, hopefully, the tummy will go down and I will be able to do more.
The other thing that I have trouble with is the push-ups. I can't do one push-up... let alone three sets of 10. I think that as I build up my arm muscles and as I drop my weight, I will someday be able to do a real push-up. My 213lbs is just too much to be hefting up and down.
So far, I have stuck to the 30-40 minute work outs for Insanity. At first, I couldn't even finish the 40 minute work out, but now I am able to finish them, but I know that I would not be able to do the "Max" one hour work outs. I've stuck with the circuit workouts that have frequent rests and I am afraid of the "Pure Cardio" that is non-stop 35 minutes cardio.
Matt has started to do some of the Insanity work outs with me on the nights when he doesn't have homework to do and it really pushes me to try harder in my work outs because I have someone there beside me doing the same thing. Sometimes I make up competitions in my head to continue as long as Matt does with an exercise.
So, I will continue on with Insanity because I like it and there are so many different workouts that I don't get bored. But, we shall see if the workouts pay off on the scale.
Wednesday, June 6, 2012
Update
So, here is my update though it is a week late. I wanted to do measurements every 2 weeks, but it has been 3. But, I was sick one week of those three weeks and there was no change that week. So, here are my numbers as they are now.
Dominant Arm: 14.5" (+.5)
Neck: 14" (-.5)
Chest: 41.5" (-1.5)
Waist: 38" (-1)
1" below belly button: 44.5" (-1.5)
Hips: 46.25" (-.5)
Dominant Leg: 27.5" (0)
Dominant Calf: 16.5" (0)
Weight: 213lbs
Weight lost in three weeks: 5 pounds
Inches lost in three weeks: -4.5"
Inches lost Total: -13"
Weight loss Total: 17 lbs
It has been 8 weeks and I don't have as much to show for it as I would like. But, I have been sick twice during those 8 weeks, which is always a bummer and stunts my progress. You would think that being sick and eating less would help lose weight, but the amount of inactivity means that I am not burning more calories than I am eating.
So, if I can stay healthy, and keep at this pace, I should be at my first benchmark (200lbs) by the end of July. Lets cross our fingers and hope really hard!
Dominant Arm: 14.5" (+.5)
Neck: 14" (-.5)
Chest: 41.5" (-1.5)
Waist: 38" (-1)
1" below belly button: 44.5" (-1.5)
Hips: 46.25" (-.5)
Dominant Leg: 27.5" (0)
Dominant Calf: 16.5" (0)
Weight: 213lbs
Weight lost in three weeks: 5 pounds
Inches lost in three weeks: -4.5"
Inches lost Total: -13"
Weight loss Total: 17 lbs
It has been 8 weeks and I don't have as much to show for it as I would like. But, I have been sick twice during those 8 weeks, which is always a bummer and stunts my progress. You would think that being sick and eating less would help lose weight, but the amount of inactivity means that I am not burning more calories than I am eating.
So, if I can stay healthy, and keep at this pace, I should be at my first benchmark (200lbs) by the end of July. Lets cross our fingers and hope really hard!
Monday, June 4, 2012
Down Again Despite
I am down two pounds this week, bringing me to 213lbs! Yay! I have now lost 17 pounds total.
I was surprised that I had lost this week because yesterday Matt and I made a trifle for dessert and I ate massive amounts of trifle. But, I suppose trifle is mostly fruit... and pudding, and whip cream and cake. Okay, it is not good for me at all, but somehow if there is fruit involved, I like to believe that it is healthy.
I am back on track after two weeks of no weight loss. Which was most likely due to the fact that I was not exercising because I was all sick. But, I exercised this week (Insanity!) and I am feeling good. It feels really good to be moving forward again.
Only 13 more pounds to go before I hit my first bench mark. Hopefully, it doesn't take me another 8 weeks to lose these pounds... but if it does, I am still moving in the right direction.
I was surprised that I had lost this week because yesterday Matt and I made a trifle for dessert and I ate massive amounts of trifle. But, I suppose trifle is mostly fruit... and pudding, and whip cream and cake. Okay, it is not good for me at all, but somehow if there is fruit involved, I like to believe that it is healthy.
I am back on track after two weeks of no weight loss. Which was most likely due to the fact that I was not exercising because I was all sick. But, I exercised this week (Insanity!) and I am feeling good. It feels really good to be moving forward again.
Only 13 more pounds to go before I hit my first bench mark. Hopefully, it doesn't take me another 8 weeks to lose these pounds... but if it does, I am still moving in the right direction.
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)